Wonder (8.18.08)

I watched as it walked by

Then that infamous knot swelled in my throat

Because I felt it leaving me

But once again I was watching,

Hating the moment, every moment that chose to leave,

Regretting my non-actions

Forgetting the oath I made to myself

Relentlessly trying to hold on

    And selfishly letting go, each and every time,

 That moment captured emotion

                All balled up

Trying to level out, but only sticking to

   One side or the other

But I’m still watching and speaking

   And enjoying the thought of actually

                                Doing

So others live, in my way

   Breath up my path

     And eat up my dream

    before I allow it to rot

         In the pits of nothing

   So I sit and watch

On a park bench, where wonder seems to be the

   Only occupant of my time………