Rained portrait

I had this canvas painting,
a beautiful one,
The trees stood tall,
It was early to mid fall,
The leaves trickled down to the breath of the earth,
The sky so perfect soon to winter it was giving birth,
The sun captured a radiant glow,
on this canvas painting laid out for show,
I'd sit and stare and engulf myself in the moment,
because it sent me beyond reality,
I was happy,
In this painting I found my true happiness,
I gave it my all,
Every second of my attention belonged to it,
I'd lay at night and smile,
Knowing that it would never disapear,
It was my one true wonder,
Then one day it rained,
The drops trickled down my wall,
daring to touch what I'd always called my own,
This beautiful portait ever so true,
The colors intwined creating new art,
that was confusing and crazy,
Insanity at its best,
my trees melted into muddy oblivion,
my sun was a fierce flame that scored its way through grey skies,
Where had my peace gone,
the creation of a new dawn,
a new day.

Betrayal

You love, and then you love more fearlessly,

Letting down your guard because you believe love conquers all,

And with it we can get through anything,

But what happens when the heart that contains all of your love is ripped out of your chest,

Thrown down and stomped on,

What happens when that love stings,

Sending shooting pains through out your veins,

When love becomes betrayal,

When trust dies and hate is birthed,

Does love conquer all?

Or does it watch us fall,

Do we breath through the pain,

Adhering to what we knew to be true,

But is it true anymore?

What do we have after this?

The world we once knew can no longer exist,

When lies persist,

I was betrayed and lied to,

My life and health was put at risk,

My love was put on the line of fire,

Just when I thought we were reaching higher,

If this is love and what we so impatiently seek to fall into,

I wonder if I truly seek to be apart of that club of wonders and unknowns,

Fairy tales were child’s play,

Reality strikes eventually through the dawn of the day,

And I question so many things,

Why do we risk it all for that butterfly tingle?

And the in between the sheets mingle,

We gamble our hearts with high hopes of a win,

But our chances of such luck have always been thin,

 Like love this has no ending,

And with this letter my heart I am sending.

Need to be

When a women needs to be touched its a dangerous thing,
Neglect settles in with temptations sting,
Never wonder astray,
But there's always that day,
That, that touch not touched,
And those lips not kissed,
Emotions not embraced,
Legs unwound,
And sweet spot unfilled,
Will close up shop and her want for you will no longer exist...

Moments

There are some moments in life that really make you stop and think. Those moments are to be appreciated. If it were not for those moments all else would have fallen apart.

Missing heart beat

The rhythm of life, dance of wonders,
It's missing its gone,
Swimming beyond irrational beings,
Living, breathing
My child is gone,
If no one cared, I did
Attached to a soul that sang
Songs of joy, a new life
Sickening, nauseated hate
Unfairly Thrown upon you
But I cared, I loved
We held hands in my thoughts
I caressed your cheek with with one finger
Your tiny body
Disappeared into careless actions
We danced we sang
Till we died
A slow death
And your still alive
You still live
In my thoughts that is
Because if no one cared,
I did
My child, my love
We sang, we danced
My child, my love
Awaken
Then you die
I killed you,
We killed you,
Bloody hands, forever stained
We sang, we danced
Stomping on your grave,
Beating myself up,
Beating myself up,
Beating myself up,
I've cried, I cry
My tears, your tears
Lets dance , no dance
If no one else
I cared

My insanity is my sanity

My happiest moment disappeared
Vanished
So quick
Left no trace
Replaced by heavy breathing
Weighed down chest
Lubricated eyes
Tightened throat
I want to disappear
And no longer be in existence
A feeling taken over with persistence
What's real is skewed
What do I do
Although I am not
I do feel so alone
God please save me from me

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Stone

I sure cant cast the first one..
So Lord I'm praying everyday to become a better person.