Why?

-Why can't we as human beings live in a world where constant games aren't required to sustain a some what healthy relationship?
-Why do egos constantly need stroking?
-Why can't I say how much I love you on any given day as a release of an overfilled pot, with out it becoming misconstrued and taken as a sign of weakness?
-Why are the good times great and the bad times... Well just bad?
-Why does my smile wonder how long it's going to last? & my frowns never seem to go away fast?
-Why do I constantly worry for others but wonder if anyone worries for me?
-Why do I want to give some much?
-Why does doing for others feel so great? But doing for myself always seems to come too late?
-Why does this thing called love drive you so crazy?

Love Sick

I'm nauseous with guilt,
and aching with Love,

Purely painfully filled with emotion,
Throwing up gallons of devotion,
Lying on a love song,
While my world is spinning so wrong,

Stumbling on words
Resuscitation. Heart filled curds of,

Love Choking on Realities mixed with 12 shots of imagination,
Breath...
Chest rising gasping for diamond filled glittery endings,
Breath..
Exhale..
Fainting under the spell of gut clenching butterflies
Breath
Breath

Flat lined on Love Reaching for whimsical clouds
Smothering applauding heart strings , singing crowds..

 Breath...............

I'll take the blame.
That was way to easy but I'll take that blame.
I'll say what no one else wanted to say and I'll go through the pain.
I'll take the blame

Rebound girl

She's the one that was there for you when she thought It was over way before it actually ended.
She cared , she loved,
She gave some what of her all,
Then months into it she finds that really its not over,
The shit you guys had or rather still have its not over,
It never was,
Conversations of keeping it real,
We're just that,
Conversations.
Never converted into actions,
She's your rebound chic,
The one that makes you feel good when the going gets tough,
The one who in her head was thinking the efforts were going towards a happy ending,
But rather being deposited into a bankrupt bank,
Shes everything you want but truly can't have,
She's your rebound chic,
The lies and the good times,
Living in a happy fantasy,
Never facing the unhappy moments,
The things that hurt us,
Because its not a true relationship,
She's your rebound chic,
Looking good on your arm,
And when it's all said and done you throw her away,
Your her go,
Lead her to believe that long term was a possibility,
And following through was never your responsibility,
She's your rebound chic,
And she never realized it.
Until now.
Her heart has been crushed and her feelings depleted,
Over it all!
Now let's just have fun

Acts of betrayal

There are those moments in life when your heart jumps. That moment when you remember such hurtful things. The time when the person you love lied or said hurtful things.
Forgiveness isn't everything it should be the memory that we should be able to erase. Because those little moments carry on forever. They take constant effort to keep pushing it to the back of your mind. To push a smile through.
Because honestly you'll always wish it never happened and once it does , it changes something inside of you. The way you see that person.You can no longer see them the same.
But in some crazy way I think there are benefits from such situations. Those little lies, actions of betrayal. They bring you back to reality. They bring your head out of the clouds from beyond lovers land and make you see that person for who they truly are minus the tinted shades. You get to see that person for the flawed human being that we all are.
What comes into question is....
Do I love you that much to see beyond those flaws?
Is our love that strong that we still progress into a greater love?
Am I strong enough within myself to keep from acting in the same manner?