Life line

I feel like I'm suffocating, like what today brings is not enough,
And tomorrow is sure to be rough,
I feel like I'm sinking
Emotions flare and they have no reason,
Cold tears and its not my season,
I'm dying slowly on the inside, I'm falling apart,
Screams muffled, aching heart,
My prayers seem to be stunted,
I can't get one out,
Where is my God now,
To transform my doubt?
I need a push, a hand, a life line,
Mine is about to end,
I'm crying harder now.....
Blurry vision, gasping for air,
What did I do to myself?
Another traumatic event,
I was fine I swore,
And now I hate myself,
I hate myself!
God doesn't give us more then we can handle,
But I sure know how to push myself over the edge,
My eyes are stinging now, burning isn't the word,
Emotions stirring...
And they have no reason.
It's just me by myself with no where to go,
God hear my screams, Lord hear my pleas
Save me from me!

Dislike

Dislike is not the word.
This was a test and we failed.

Learned

You learn allot about people when you are going through. Hurts but this is a lesson learned. A huge one! When out of this situation there is no going back.

I don't

I don't really want to do this.
My thoughts go back and forth.
I'm in a bad space a bad place.
Because I don't really want to do this.
I want things to exist
I want them to stay
I don't want to do this!
Silence....
Everyone disappears...
I'm gone. Non existent
I ended it all