I've got the tools to succeed. I just need to use them!

If I never needed a prayer , I need one today. Mentally I'm reaching that limit.
Lord please rebuild me and count me in. I'm not perfect and will never be, but I need you now. Right now. I need your forgiveness , your compassion, to be filled with joy, the ability to forgive, and the will to live beyond what's in front of me. I'm not asking for much but I'm asking to be filled with you. Lessen me and fill me with you.
I need your hand right now because you are the ultimate friend. No one can fill that void but you , for no man can be the God you are. I'm pleading and begging for my sanity and that everlasting peace.
Amen

An Ad For Friends

I'm doing it backwards..
No dates, No loves, No dinners, No nothing...
I'm putting out an ad for friends.
The shoulder to lean on..
The shoulder to cry on..

A hand to hold,
An ear for secrets to be told,

An ad for friends with out the rules,
You be yourself and I'll be mine,
Not dumb lovers blind as fools,

New sights to be seen,
While I'm free to be mean,
No holding back our true selves,
No judging.

An ad for friends
His and hers
because we aren't worried about impressing,
Just a good laugh with allot less stressing,

I can call when I want and not see you for a while,
But no hard feelings because we are truly friends.

An ad for friends
Don't you dare think its more
I'm only looking for friends to see even more

It was business as usual nothing extra.

Date with poison

We sat we chat
I laughed you laughed
But it was a date with poison
I knew I could never be who I use to be
But I forced myself to try, to try so hard at it
Still yet it was toxic
I became woozy and out of my element
Then we parted our ways with a gentle touch
That meant nothing to me
I felt nothing!
But I became sick
Sick with thought
A nauseating impulse to reach out
Guards down , I reached back to the familiar
And like familiar you let me down.

Yep gotta do what you gotta do!