Hold my hand

Lets hold hands and never let go
Lets love every second of every moment and never let go
Hold my hand
Let's day dream together and realize it's our reality
Two kids in the park with no worries
Escaping ...
Let's play house I'll set up the kitchen
You hang the pots
Hold my hand
And when it gets too hard
Hold my hand
Let's love each other more then our hearts can bare
And give beyond what our souls can share
Hold my hand boy
And bring me back
Tell me you feel the same
And act
Act on that feeling
Let's be a love song
So appealing
Be my valentine sweet candy heart
Hold my hand
and Love me harder , stronger , deeper
Walk away .. Walk away boy
Thinkin Damn... She's a Keeper

She's Never been loved

Seeing the world through dirty brown eyes,
Been told a shit load of lies,
She's never been loved,

Beauty resting upon her face,
The goal, the prize of the mens master race,
She's never been loved,

Her body, the silloette her image was pure,
Their lust, their want dripping from tongues was sure,
She's never been loved,

She opened up every single time thinking it was...
Thinking love lived beneath thick skins and and twisted minds,
She's never been loved,

They wouldn't let her go, she was hypnotic ,
With a pinch of psychotic,
She's never been loved,

Her lov'n, her sex,
Magic,
She's never been loved

But she loved,
She loved with all of her heart,
From every start,
The way she wanted to be loved,
The way her daddy should've loved,
The image always a reflection in her life,
Worn on her sleeve,
Because for her to believe,
That in the end happiness lied,
It truly lied,

Happiness needed to live within.. Her
It needed to seep through her own pores,
She needed to live breath and speak happiness,
That walk that swayed , should sway her true identity,
A wisp of sweet serenity ,

Love never loved her,
It picked a chose not to love her,
It skipped along the sidewalk of lust,
Internal trust,
And twirled her hair around it's fingers,
A honey dew smell that lingers,
Never staying,
Always praying of change,
Beyond the God given range,
Belonging and longing for,
More!

Never satisfied,
Empty,
Never complacent,
Moving,
Never Peace,
Chaotic,
Never Love,
Hate

The rant... ( My words unorganized)

I want to do it right this time around.I'm still a hopeless romantic but now my eyes are open this time around.
I want the connection , I want the friendship.
I've learned that intimacy is way more then sex. Because when the sex fades , which it will, can we still maintain a friendship , a loving caring relationship with out being stressed or holding something against the other person?
I want to freely express myself with no worries.
When the lights dim curtains close , I want the audience to say she stayed true to self.
We are constantly finding ourselves no matter how old we get, it's even harder in a relationship.I want to freely do so and I want it to be excepted..
I will always be a free spirit, I can never be locked into a role or an expectation. Can you handle that?
My views on : Sex is always a privilege (not a necessity) in an unwed relationship, can "we" handle that? Can we maintain the "true"intimacy"?
You always wonder about the what if's in life but when do we let go of those and keep what we have?
My number one priority in life is to be a parent? All else and everyone else falls behind that.
Do you believe in me as much as I do, do you believe that this really could be?
WE all love and love to be loved but will our love last?

You scare me with that look , and it makes me wonder about our future. I'm not sure what power or senseless thoughts burrow behind that angry look. The look that makes me feel as if your reprimanding me, as if I were your child. And the words that flow from it don't help.. So Do we last?

I'm at a point where I don't know what I want anymore but I know what I have.
It's a good thing, it is...
So can we just flow?
I don't think time is ever wasted in any relationship, because you learn from those moments. You learn about yourself. Plenty about self.



Let the song play on...
It never ends...

My child

I can't imagine my world without her but at times my child drives me beyond crazy.
It's like God put these little creatures into our world to pull us back down out of the clouds. Gods little reminders of reality. A child in my eyes is the ultimate test of life. Through and with this child you will experience hurt, happiness , joy , pain, grief .. They are an endless test of patience. At times you love them and others well.. you still love but there goes that test again!

Dear Jersey

Dear Jersey,





I'm sitting here on Saturday night thinking about the times we spent together. You've been there from the start and for some reason I can't let you go. I mean it's not that I want to, I just need a little space, I mean .. I..




(Exhale)


.


You’re flowing through my veins,


And when it rains,


I wish it was your storms,


Your lightning and thunderous ways,


Missing those nights we drove together,


With your chilly winds flowing through my cracked windows,


Just what I needed to keep me up late at night


And you never worrying whispering “She knows,”





She knows that I live in her and flow through her,


She knows..





Loud music living by the lyrics and never denying the bass,


And no matter how crowded, I always had my space, my place,





I remember the day I fell in love with you,


It’s so funny how we’ve been through it all,


And only time forced me to fall,


And I fell Hard... For you,





Then it was us,


The laughs the tears,


The minutes the years,





I’m missing the way you kissed my spirit,


And hugged my soul,


We had so much in common,


I swore we’d grow old together,


A bond so thick tough as leather,




You felt it with me,


And saw through my eyes,


When I thought I couldn’t, but did,


You knew how many tries,


Then I left,


I left you all alone,


I left,




I know you think I’m crazy for saying this,


For Speaking out,





I left, Right?


This time you speak outside of a whisper,


“You left Me”





I hear your pain,


And sometimes it pulls me in,


Almost moving back to what we had,


..Jersey.. girl for life, I mean your girl for Life right?





Where do ..Jersey.. and I really stand?


Do you want me back or is it the idea,


Because year after year,


We go through this,


Never fails,


My heart yearns for your touch,


Embracing my thoughts,


Jersey’s impeccable style,


On my face it kept a smile,




No matter where I move,


No one, I mean no place compares,


Not even close,


Your holding me back ..Jersey..!


You’ve set the bar, reset the standards.





(Inhale)





My fantasy was always a reality,


Then I left…





I left…

She Rocks

Melodic drama keeping us moving,
We're flowing, we're grooving,
With eyes shut wide open,
I'm feeling it
I'm , I'm
As the Jazz plays on
From the trumpets snout , I was born,
Play on bad boy,
Ooh she rocks

Eyes wide shut,
Last call final cut,
The snares of my life linger,
With the solo eclectic singer,
She sings , she sings,
Ladies Got the blues,
And a pair of Bad’ Shoes,

Walk on mama , walk on
Ooh she rocks

I'm going to laugh today,
I'm going smile at the possibilities,
Of potential sharing in the responsibilities,
That may fester up a chuckle,
And loosen up a buckle,
Or Two,
I'm going to laugh and say,
This is knotting up my stomach,
It is bringing out the best today,
My tears are rolling on their way,
To a tiny hidden hiccup,
I'm going to laugh today,
Meaning today is already yesterday,
Which means tomorrow I digested my sorrow,
And released a joyous headache,
Because I chose to laugh today,

And nothing else matters,
Funny took me over as the frown drowned ,
And the laughter splatters...

Because I was sure to laugh today!

-Loveshirl

I'm such a hopeless romantic...

I hope this "Thing" never goes away..
I still believe in the endless kisses and warming hugs,
I believe in the A.M never ending calls,
I still love the just because moments........
The nervous bellies and cuddles on the couch,
The not sure laughs and the distracting Day Dreams.....
I still believe in the teenage love Graduated...
I believe in the college love elevated....
I still believe in Love...
I want to be in love with my best friend a friendship to the end...
I want to love , Love itself...
Because love has no preference but a life long reference,
of....
Truth and understanding...
I still believe in fighting for Love and not throwing in the towel,
I still believe in finding a positive in faults,
The greatness in flaws,
I know Love is not sex..
But rather the connection beyond the erection..
A gentleness a care that causes both to submit to a reality beyond reality,
It's giving yourself unselfishly for the others satisfaction,

I still believe despite the hurt,
Despite knowing that every time I give my all it comes back to me void,
Despite being torn apart,
I still believe because I want too because I"M A HOPELESS ROMANTIC...