Seeking Princess party attendess

I made a mommy friend yesterday! That's the mother of my child's friend. We aren't necessarily friends but our children are friends. Why is this exciting to me? Because I don't call myself anti-social but some would. It's just harder for me to try and make "Mommy Friends" because I'm so young and all of the activities my daughter has joined have kids with moms who are much older and well established in their careers. Which brings me to another point.
I know I'm not the only young mom but it seems that allot of the extra curricular activities that I attend that are for my daughter have kids with moms that are much older and established. Is it that younger parents can't afford to put there children in these activities? Are we to consumed in our own personal growth to provide these great opportunities for our children? Or do we just not know any better? I don't know what the answer is and I may be wrong about my assumptions. But it sure would be great to see more of my age range in attendance.
So Journey will soon have her first play date! Hopefully because she took my number and said she'd text me hers and I have yet to hear from her. I feel like a new kid at school trying to make friends for my daughters sake. But it's fun! Journey only has her boy cousins down here which is awesome because I won't have to worry about her toughening up . But it sure would be fun to have some girl-friends to invite to her 5th Princess Party next year!

unfinished

I saw the sky blue today,
It was seen in a different way,
I opened my eyes and soaked it in,
and let my heart smile within,

This day like no other,
broke down many bricks,
that barricaded my soul,
that have paid hells toll,

Today I saw the sky blue,
and it read my soul true,
as it marinated and my heart contemplated,
On those hated days that I saw so few,

The wall hasn't been broken,
but words have been spoken...

There's more to see beyond the unknown

For a reason...

I've learned over time that every person you come into contact with is put there for a reason that contributes to Gods master plan for your life.
My cousin she's taught me the importance of taking your time, feel out the situation then make a decision. Often times we are in such a rush to make something fun new and exciting happen in our lives. For example when we come into a good amount of money the first instinct is to spend it all or take care of everyone . Instead of saving budgeting and making a plan for the money.
When you rush you over spend in your life as well as your bank account!
It's important for me to make a cushion for myself and my child to be able to live comfortably. So... The next move is investments and saving....

Dear Jersey

Dear Jersey,





I'm sitting here on Saturday night thinking about the times we spent together. You've been there from the start and for some reason I can't let you go. I mean it's not that I want to, I just need a little space, I mean .. I..




(Exhale)


.


You’re flowing through my veins,


And when it rains,


I wish it was your storms,


Your lightning and thunderous ways,


Missing those nights we drove together,


With your chilly winds flowing through my cracked windows,


Just what I needed to keep me up late at night


And you never worrying whispering “She knows,”





She knows that I live in her and flow through her,


She knows..





Loud music living by the lyrics and never denying the bass,


And no matter how crowded, I always had my space, my place,





I remember the day I fell in love with you,


It’s so funny how we’ve been through it all,


And only time forced me to fall,


And I fell Hard... For you,





Then it was us,


The laughs the tears,


The minutes the years,





I’m missing the way you kissed my spirit,


And hugged my soul,


We had so much in common,


I swore we’d grow old together,


A bond so thick tough as leather,




You felt it with me,


And saw through my eyes,


When I thought I couldn’t, but did,


You knew how many tries,


Then I left,


I left you all alone,


I left,




I know you think I’m crazy for saying this,


For Speaking out,





I left, Right?


This time you speak outside of a whisper,


“You left Me”





I hear your pain,


And sometimes it pulls me in,


Almost moving back to what we had,


..Jersey.. girl for life, I mean your girl for Life right?





Where do ..Jersey.. and I really stand?


Do you want me back or is it the idea,


Because year after year,


We go through this,


Never fails,


My heart yearns for your touch,


Embracing my thoughts,


Jersey’s impeccable style,


On my face it kept a smile,




No matter where I move,


No one, I mean no place compares,


Not even close,


Your holding me back ..Jersey..!


You’ve set the bar, reset the standards.





(Inhale)





My fantasy was always a reality,


Then I left…





I left…

Influenced by an unknown Author of the "I believe Poem"

I believe that sometimes it takes you to be kind first, for someone to find their kindness within
I believe when you love someone you'll fight for it
I believe true friends are hard to come by but when you have one they're there forever
I believe if your raised in the church under good teaching that, that foundation will never crack
I believe forgiveness is not only a gift to the person you are forgiving but an even larger gift to you
I believe that love is a choice
I believe our hearts are the strongest muscle in our bodies , so when it takes a hard beating or even a rough ache
I believe you'll be ok
I believe life is what you make it
I believe that surrounding yourself with positive people will indeed reap a positive experience
I believe every change starts with a
Change of mind
I believe children are Gods gift and your future so Invest in your tomorrow
I believe the strongest bond you can have is a mothers love
I believe family is the best relationship you can have in life
I believe that when I get older I will also get wiser
I believe that our elders are insight on our past and future
I believe that loving yourself is a must !
I Know I am great and I am destined for greatness

I posted Some oldy poems because they still apply to my present.. Hope you enjoy and please feel free to comment.!

Writers block

I dug deep this time, for more then existance,
beyond this greater being , above more then seeing,
I wanted to know the truth to this non aparent wall , I felt my self pushing and on the other side an echoed call,
but still no help came , and things remained the same ,
Thats when i realized the next morning that really Ive been sheilding myselffrom my own thoughts, my own wonders,
while in the back of my mind still ponders ,
about words that could have been said , dreams that should have been read, my words still never alive nor dead...
there was a crack, and finally when I peeked through
it was my own back

Luiy was my inspiration for this one...Thnx Lui