Taken

The feeling of trust broken,
The sound of silent words unspoken,
Hurt entrenched, seeped hate from my heart,
Boundaries crossed from the very start,

What I believed was wrong,
I drew blank and heard the willows song,
Another world corrected there wrong,
A silence but not for long,

Purity turned black,
Happy turned black,
Innocence turned black,
Honesty turned black,
My heart turned black,

Tear scared face,
A sour bitter taste,
Lingers and haunts my thoughts,
I can't escape,
I couldn't escape this mental rape,

I'd kill you, I want to hurt you,
I want you to feel tainted,
Soft yellow walls painted, in my mind, Whimsical!
That's where I hid my better mind,
While you tried to take me from behind,

I haven't forgiven although I say, I did,
I try every time then I remember how I was just a kid,
So I hate you I do,
ever so true,
In the mid night blue,
I kill you!

In my thoughts, I kill you
In my spirit, I kill you
In my life, I kill you
In my soul, I kill you

I'm tearing apart your very existence,
And gripping your heart with powerful persistence,
I kill you!

Influenced by an unknown Author of the "I believe Poem"

I believe that sometimes it takes you to be kind first, for someone to find their kindness within
I believe when you love someone you'll fight for it
I believe true friends are hard to come by but when you have one they're there forever
I believe if your raised in the church under good teaching that, that foundation will never crack
I believe forgiveness is not only a gift to the person you are forgiving but an even larger gift to you
I believe that love is a choice
I believe our hearts are the strongest muscle in our bodies , so when it takes a hard beating or even a rough ache
I believe you'll be ok
I believe life is what you make it
I believe that surrounding yourself with positive people will indeed reap a positive experience
I believe every change starts with a
Change of mind
I believe children are Gods gift and your future so Invest in your tomorrow
I believe the strongest bond you can have is a mothers love
I believe family is the best relationship you can have in life
I believe that when I get older I will also get wiser
I believe that our elders are insight on our past and future
I believe that loving yourself is a must !
I Know I am great and I am destined for greatness

Today I became irritated by the fact that I allowed someone to speak negative things about me but also speak those things into my life. I thought I was over it but the things they said were of a sensitive topic.
So my mission for today and tomorrow and so on.. Is to only allow positive people into my circle. People who know me and not think they know me. Not those who read my Facebook or Twitter then allow their minds to exaggerate the moment and build a judgmental opinion about me. Because for someone to know me , they will understand my words beyond the obvious. They already know the in betweens.
Today I got a letter of termination. A letter stating my child will lose her health insurance.
Today I cursed the negative words spoken into my spirit by someone who doesn't know me.
Today I sat in the ER this morning with my child instead of clocking into work. Then when it was all said and done I returned to work to make sure I'll have a job to come back to tomorrow.
Today that same child threw a fit after work. She threw a tantrum that made me think all kinds of thoughts. But instead of breaking down I drove to McDonalds , I propositioned her with a fry and got myself a small Carmel Frappe . Only to get to the window and find out They are on sale all month for $1. Now that made my day!

I wish I never met you,
I gave you everything but it was never enough to open yah eyes and make you see everything I had to offer. But I guess it's my fault for being the dummy and never listening to my better half that kept telling me it was time to go. That the things I was doing for you was pointless. I loved you so much I gave you my heart and what did I get a ride and an aborted baby. I hate you so much and it pushes on my heart so bad because I loved you. One baby out and another in. You bastard if I didn't have good sense I'd let you scar me for the rest of my life. I'd let your bad taste linger. But I can't I can't be the weak chic that became bitter. I refuse to give up, because i know that there was a reason for this and though I may not understand right now one day I will. I still hurt when I see things that remind me of you. I think about the things we've gone through and now that love has turned to hate. So my final forget you and really I wish I never met you!