Missing heart beat

The rhythm of life, dance of wonders,
It's missing its gone,
Swimming beyond irrational beings,
Living, breathing
My child is gone,
If no one cared, I did
Attached to a soul that sang
Songs of joy, a new life
Sickening, nauseated hate
Unfairly Thrown upon you
But I cared, I loved
We held hands in my thoughts
I caressed your cheek with with one finger
Your tiny body
Disappeared into careless actions
We danced we sang
Till we died
A slow death
And your still alive
You still live
In my thoughts that is
Because if no one cared,
I did
My child, my love
We sang, we danced
My child, my love
Awaken
Then you die
I killed you,
We killed you,
Bloody hands, forever stained
We sang, we danced
Stomping on your grave,
Beating myself up,
Beating myself up,
Beating myself up,
I've cried, I cry
My tears, your tears
Lets dance , no dance
If no one else
I cared

My insanity is my sanity

My happiest moment disappeared
Vanished
So quick
Left no trace
Replaced by heavy breathing
Weighed down chest
Lubricated eyes
Tightened throat
I want to disappear
And no longer be in existence
A feeling taken over with persistence
What's real is skewed
What do I do
Although I am not
I do feel so alone
God please save me from me

Share

I don't share nor do I play well with others ;) ... Just the way it is.

Stone

I sure cant cast the first one..
So Lord I'm praying everyday to become a better person.

Life line

I feel like I'm suffocating, like what today brings is not enough,
And tomorrow is sure to be rough,
I feel like I'm sinking
Emotions flare and they have no reason,
Cold tears and its not my season,
I'm dying slowly on the inside, I'm falling apart,
Screams muffled, aching heart,
My prayers seem to be stunted,
I can't get one out,
Where is my God now,
To transform my doubt?
I need a push, a hand, a life line,
Mine is about to end,
I'm crying harder now.....
Blurry vision, gasping for air,
What did I do to myself?
Another traumatic event,
I was fine I swore,
And now I hate myself,
I hate myself!
God doesn't give us more then we can handle,
But I sure know how to push myself over the edge,
My eyes are stinging now, burning isn't the word,
Emotions stirring...
And they have no reason.
It's just me by myself with no where to go,
God hear my screams, Lord hear my pleas
Save me from me!

Dislike

Dislike is not the word.
This was a test and we failed.

Learned

You learn allot about people when you are going through. Hurts but this is a lesson learned. A huge one! When out of this situation there is no going back.